The Shadow Walker (a poem)

so I know it has been a while since I have posted anything that is in part due to how busy these last few days, um weeks, have been. so today after going up to Oxford to watch my sister's friend / Chinese sister graduate, and completely freezing in the process (no joke I spent $2.00 for hot chocolate that I cant drink because I am allergic just so I could hold something warm)I though about my blog. Well truthfully what brought it to mind was a text reminder for an email saying my school literary magazine was not going to publish any of my poetry submissions. So that was a slight downer but it's not like I'm going to stop writing poetry, which reminded me that my imaginary audience and the two followers of my blog happen to enjoy my poetry so why not just share it with them? which is what I am about to do and this Poem I will say nothing about except that I wrote it earlier this fall and as far as the content goes, well that is completely up to interpretation. so I Hope you enjoy it and I hope it will get you thinking, "hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm now what could this be about?"

Shadow Walker

The daytime casts shadows long
The setting sun casts them short and strong
Nighttime casts them eerier still
And in the darkness there is a chill,
The darkness is by the shadows made
And I remain, in that, overcast shade
For I am a shadow walker, in the shadows I hide
And in the darkness, I cannot see the teary eyed
My own shadow I cannot trace
It disappears into this shadowy place
But maybe all pain will go away
Maybe I can keep my suffering at bay
If I stay hidden here
Where the shadows mask my fear,
Yes, I am invisible in the darkened shade
Unnoticed my burdens weighed
But still that fear remains within
And so my torments begin,
I am afraid to step into the light
And afraid to be consumed by the night,
I am sad in the safety here
And in the light, I think, joy shall appear,
But by my fear, I am tightly bound
My feet never, leave the ground
And if my feet where to touch the air
And light where to overpower despair
The shadows would go away
And I would rejoice in the sunny day,
If only the light would not leave me, unprotected and exposed
And as it does, I stay safely in the shadows enclosed
And while the darkness brings me tears
The pain is less than my fears
For I have known great pain before
And I have said, never more,
But while I’m safe in the dark
It leaves another kind of mark
And while dreams live for the truth to mock
It is in the shadows I shall walk